TWOZEROTWO'09♥

...i meant to post this yesterday...

so i will cut out all the lark about good luck for napfa. good luck for bio spa if any of you still haven't taken it yet.


late nights + looming exams + looming napfa = me thinking philosophical thoughts = NOT HELPFUL towards looming exams + looming napfa. you know, while i DID say i believe that there were QUITE enough people in this world maintaining food-for-thought blogs, and that there ought to be more lighthearted focus-on-the-little-things happiness-giving posts (SEE I HAVE NO BRAIN LEFT, THIS IS THE RESULT OF LATE NIGHT + BIO SPA + ART PRAC. actually i had no brain left for quite a while already, and the ridiculous events of late have just perpetuated this phenomenon. okay that was long. take a while to read the part where the last sentence got cut off. oh no i just made it longer. never mind. moving on!) BUT

it gets stale hearing the same inane things from the same person. and also it is very detrimental to the reputation of the provider of inane humour, which in turn affects their interpersonal relationships, which will then (NEGATIVELY) impact their prospects in general.

basically (ooh, i said it, haha) a preamble towards a slightly more solemn post.

this year i've been trying to live in denial, not saying stuff about this being our last first day of school, last napfa, last spa, last pt, whatever, and so this is the first time that i am realising that it IS our sec 4 year! and all the implications that THAT brings.

revisiting the blog that we had as a sec 1/sec 2 class, when you're in sec 4, is really special. i know i know, overwrought cliche, but the memories are really special. well, yes okay in the nostalgia kind of way, that is the most common, but it's also special for me in a "what if?" sense. what if we had gone through obs together? what if we had done the sec 4 fashion parade together? (yeahh...i would like to have the privilege of designing ridiculous outfits to deck some of you in :D) what if we had the yearbook page together? and in a sense this isn't futile imagining. the way things go, how sec 4 classes get the yearbook page, and how they have the fashion parade and all that, it seems as though the most important part of rgs life, the most memorable part, is the sec 3/sec 4 class. but why shouldn't the sec1/sec2 class be remembered as well? i suppose the mentality is that because sec 1 and sec 2 had less stress they don't need all these special things to perk up life (like fashion parade and yearbook page and grad vid) but really i don't think it's so much for PERKING up life, if it was in sec 1 sec 2, but rather creating more memorable experiences, and actually having EVIDENCE of our candidness, (is that a word??) our personalities, our identities. (oh no sec 2 lit all over again!! haha)

i haven't got a very good memory, well in a sense i DO, but it's not good in the sense that memories fade, faces get hazier until they're unrecognisable, sounds get blurred until they're incomprehensible, the entire memory becomes so insubstantial that i'm not even sure i really remembered it, or if i only made it up. so it's really good to be coming back here and looking at all the photos and having my memory made more vivid. it's like servicing a tv, making the sounds and colours brighter and sharper and clearer. haha.

so IN CONCLUSION (see this is what school does to you) leaving sec 2 felt like a kind of graduation, the sec1/sec2 class was just as sweet as the sec3sec4 class, each in their own way, and it's really good to have this blog to keep alive the memories of sec1sec2 days, because they were also a part of rgs life and deserve to be reflected and remembered, just as well as the sec3sec4 days.

love you guys, stay strong and carry on!

kimmie
(i really need a nicer nickname)